By faith not by sight!

It's been dark times, for a long while, in my life. God has been resting in my heart waiting for me to get my butt into gear and let him burst out. Satan has ruled over everything I've been doing lately but I knew that and I just couldn't escape it, I was trapped in slavery (thanks Pastor Rob) but I knew I had to come to church to encouter God. He blew all the junk out of the water and I gave in to His love, which is in no way a bad thing. The emotion isn't exploding out of me like it used to just yet but I know it's exploding in me. Hence this blog.
The pain and sorrow and guilt and depression had a firm grip on me but I refuse to let them back in I must stand firm and be on fire again. I know that God wants me to speak words onto people and how can I do that if I'm wallowing away in self pity? It can't. So the stand is restood as of right now.
I kept letting excuses get in the way, being bitter toward things that were once making me spot, arguing with friends just to be hated, not loving and not feeling my heart. I found judgement toward people, blaming them for who I was becoming, letting a negative image of my church family dictate my attendance and involvement in things I used to strive to be in.
More or less there were many chains and bonds that held me
Right were I was and dragging me down into Satan's lair, I don't want to
Be there not now not ever so Satan this is a big thank you and have a nice day. Thank you for dragging me so far so that when I came back up there was nothing you could do to take me Back you can no longer plug your evil lies into my heart or mind. You will no longer make me weary as God will fill me with life. Love will once again brim from me. I will refill my cup I will refuel my fire.
As for faith not by sight, that is true you can't always see what he has and sometimes you feel like maybe it's not there but I can tell you it is and always will be. He loves us and we have the power to live by faith in that. But also sight clouds all our thoughts and beliefs and our judgement. We See things how our mind tells us to see them and it makes us pass judgement that doesn't have to be passed. Sometimes it is easier to see with your eyes wide shut. It opens our minds to His view. So live by faith not by sight.