Im sitting up at 234 am with no idea why I am still up, I know I will most likely have to wake to Bellah at 7 in the morning, but I still manage to be up. I cant stop thinking about what I should be and what I could be, what I will be. I have had a massive shake up of my life this past year, and I am still struggling to deal with most parts of it. This is not to say that I am unhappy or regretful but I just have a sense of unsuredness of what to think, feel, do. I have changed my heart and thus my attitude and I can feel myself hating me. I have forced so many that were always there away and its not a purposeful act just an act of that unsuredness. I dont quite know what I think or feel or imagine anymore. I sincerely hope that something hits me hard and lets me wake up to myself and have everything work out just fine.
In the meantime I will get a snack and try to fall asleep.
Fare thee well Blogger.
You have been useful in letting out my brain.
Yours sincerely
Jamie A Hall.
Rambler.
Lost.
Searching still.